Hmmmmm

I tried to think of a title for this post, and could not think of anything that expressed my description of the day. Oh, lots of words come to mind, but which words to pick? Discouragement...Exhiliration...Hopeful...Sad...Scared...Relieved... and all of these words described my day. But how do you pick just one word.

Stephen has been having a lot of chest pain for 2 months now. The pain seems to be getting worse. He seems to be almost immobilized by the pain. He is afraid to do new things, or to preach, or to hike, ride bikes, or even watch television, for anything will trigger the pain that radiates from his chest, up into his neck and finally into the neck. The family all say "let's go to the doctor". Stephen says "I must be under some kind of stress and I'm not going to the doctor for him to tell me that I am just fine". Well, yesterday we finally got Steve to go to the doctor (this is where the word Exhiliration comes in). Today, we spent in the hospital with all kinds of tests (of which Stephen failed miserably - - thus the word discouragement.)

So off to surgery with another heart cath, which revealed that the main bypass graft from his open heart surgery (back in October 2008)had failed and Steve's ejection fraction (ie: 30) has not improved in the last year and a half which was not a good thing either. We knew 6 months ago that one of the bypass grafts had failed, now a second graft was causing him problems. We made the decision that the best thing for Dr Ritchie to do was to reconstruct Stephen's main artery by placing 4 large stents in this crucial artery. As the blockage in this artery was very critical, the heart was stopped and restarted with the electrical shock paddles. The surgery took 4 hours. Dr Ritchie had to also place stents in two other places. My heart breaks when I think that Stephen now has 10 stents. We jokingly tell him that he is a total new man, but even as the "jokes" fly around the room, there are tears of great sorrow streaming down the faces of his wife and children. Dr Ritchie doesn't know why the bypass grafts are failing. He suggested that it was just a "mechanical" thing. We talked to Dr Ritchie about Stephen's over working and perhaps he didn't handle stress well, but Dr Ritchie thought that perhaps those factors have a small role in what is going on with Steve, but mostly his body just is not handling the bypass grafts.

What next? Hopefully Stephen can come home tomorrow. We will have a quiet weekend, then Steve is to begin exercising and go back to work! We both have agreed that we have decided to "live" - even when the road is rough and bumpy...life is so much better than deciding to crawl into a hole and hybernate. Yes, we have decided to live...however, I think we are a little more sobered about just how this "life" will look.

Isn't this picture grand?

Spring flowers 2010

I love my garden! I'm so thrilled to be back outside working in the flowers. The daffodils are just about done, but the tulips, azaleas, hyacinths, bleeding heart are in full bloom right now.

Easter Table

I made the flowers for our Easter Table this year. The tulips on the table are made out of tissue paper, wires, crepe paper and flower tape! Hard to believe they are made of paper - they were so beautiful this year. I also made home-made Chocolate Easter Eggs and Stephanie made the candles out of eggshells and miniature daffodils! St



I also made daffodils out of crepe paper and decorated the tables for a church function. They, too were beautiful... thus the attached picture - just so you can "oooh" "aaah" with me!

Worley Easter Outfits

Sara and Chris could not be with us for Easter, but she sent me some pictures of the boys in their Easter outfits! We sure have good looking grandkids, don't we? It is always so hard to celebrate holidays when all of the children are not home. Sara is so good at keeping us with updated pictures and phone calls. We get to talk to Grant and Mason every day.

Jaybin at Easter

Jaybin thinks he is Mr Cool. He also wants to be superman, batman or spiderman. We had quite the argument as to whether Batman can fly - and definately spiderman flies!

We always enjoy Jaybin, he loves to have fun. He spent alot of our Easter day hike throwing sticks in the stream (while playing "pooh sticks") and rolling down a big hill in his Easter clothes, getting them filthy dirty!

Kinsen's Easter Outfit

When our children were small, every year Steve would take them shopping and buy them an Easter outfit. Steve took great delight in finding a new outfit for each of the kids and they always looked forward to their day of shopping with Daddy.

We take great delight that Jason carries on that tradition. Jason took Kinsen out shopping for an Easter dress. She is getting so big, and this year they found a "big girl" dress that went below her knee. However, I think the dress is one of my favorites. When I was a little girl I had a green and white dress that was my absolute favorite because it had a skirt on it that when I twirled, the dress would flair out. Kinsen had a dress very similar to that dress...and yes...she couldn't help herself...

It is a joy to watch Kinsen grow up. Every year she takes on more responsibility in the family. This year she made the Easter bunny salads, peeled the carrots and helped me wash and dry the dishes.